Starting over. Weight Watchers take me away! Forgive me Father, for I have sinned. I have sinned by letting emotions rule my eating habits for the last several months.
But this isn’t about beating myself up over it. What’s done is done. It’s time to move forward and be accountable for every morsel I eat. From today forward, I’m stepping off the gain train.
I’m also going to try challenging myself more. For example, we stayed in the cute little neighborhood of Taft in Lincoln City, Oregon this past weekend. There was a cute coffee shop across from our hotel that I would have ventured to if I had another coffee lover with me. I should have pushed myself to just go and get a damned coffee and look at the gifts by myself. What would have been so hard about that? I guess I use my weight as a shield or excuse that I don’t measure up and am not worthy to do things. Stupid, I know. I use weight as a protection too, though at my age you wouldn’t think there’d be anything to worry about. Sad truth is that there still is to some degree. I was taken advantage of at a younger age and that’s when the weight problems started.
Anyway, here I go yet again. My philosophy is to keep trying until I get it right. This time I hope I stay on track. Fingers crossed.