Gray Beauty

The ocean mesmerizes me and even though it’s gray, it’s still beautiful.  I’m on the patio at our timeshare, enjoying the quiet rain brings.  The drips make musical accoutrements to the louder roar of rolling waves.  Even on a cloudy day on the Oregon coast, there are many layers to the gray of sky and water. 

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View from the patio – Gleneden Beach, OR

My challenge to evolve more positively is inching forward.  I successfully deflected a drama-inciting friend who was trying to bait me into pointless gossip on Sunday.  Maybe he’s not really a friend after all.  Sadly though I know sometimes booze fuels his fire, and he tries to draw me into whatever current outrage he’s having.  Despite my telling him repeatedly that I was being purposely quiet due to migraines, he continued to text until I would no longer respond. 

So there indeed was success in some form, yet the migraines were really hammering me all week.  I am just letting them be, trying not to rail against them because that doesn’t do me any good and probably makes the migraine worse in the long run.  I have books at the ready, and will devote time to learning more about banishing the negative and living more positively.  When I’m in the midst of migraine, I don’t feel like reading something I’d rather take the time to more fully study and embrace.

The coast brings joy all on its own.  It allows me to reflect as the rhythm of the tides is like breathing in and out.  I relish this very much, no matter what the weather.

Migraines or not, the world is my here and now, and I can still experience life in some way even during pain.

About andreamarjulie

Just trying to navigate a life circumvented by chronic migraines. Sometimes I write about managing with those, but at other times I am prone to deviate a bit.
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