I am here and I guess that’s all that matters. I live for my husband and kids and for the years of Catholic guilt ingrained in me. But it isn’t easy. These last few months I feel like I’ve been stuck in the spin cycle. Just about the time I think I’m wrung out as much as possible, the tumult begins anew.
As always, it’s about these migraines. It’s about waiting two plus months to see my neurologist in the hopes of trying a magnesium infusion to break the pattern I’m locked in. He told me he didn’t know anything about magnesium infusions. He looked at my long list of things tried and failed for migraine relief, plucking out magnesium. Yes, but . . . I wanted to say. Maybe an oral supplement wasn’t helpful but an infusion would be. Furthermore, I recently saw a news piece that claims there’s not much oversight in supplements and that the actual amounts in vitamins may vary. But I didn’t say anything. I was too crushed at having waited all that time only to be told this doctor couldn’t help me.
He also stated that he wasn’t a migraine expert. Hmmm. This was an anomaly to me. This same doctor gave me Botox injections (to no avail). So how can a neurogist who’s offering Botox for chronic migraine sufferers state that he’s no expert? In the grand scheme of things, wouldn’t magnesium infusions be something you would offer your chronic migraine patients first instead of Botox? How could you know about one treatment and not the other? He also never heard about neuro stimulators, a latest possible migraine reliever via implant similar to a pacemaker.
Instead, I’m being shuffled off to yer another neurologist. This one is supposed to be a migraine specialist. I don’t get hopeful anymore. I’m not looking forward to having to tell my migraine story yet again. I pray that a couple of bad reviews written about him aren’t true, yet I can’t help that they fill me with intrepedation.
But, I must keep plugging away. Despite the pain of a migraine brain, I am here. That has to be enough.
Disclaimer: I do not endorse any treatment, but am rather writing about my experiences with them. Please consult your physician before pursuing any course of medication/treatment.